Where to from here?
By always feeling defeated and sad I tend to give myself a lot of positive reinforcements. Lots of online shopping, lots of impulse buying , lots of luxury getaways and lots of feeling like I deserve a sweet treat. At the end of the day these are not answers but short term fixes for just wanting to feel excited about something. I wanted to stop the feeling of emptiness I felt every day and give myself a purpose for this world. I don't want to look back on my life in my elderly years and feel disappointed that I spend years focussing my sadness on not being able to conceive, I want to feel accomplished. In one of our GP appointments, the Dr asked us if we really wanted to bring kids in a world that's dying, I really didn't know what to say to that considering he has four kids of his own. In all fairness it's up to each individual to do their bit for this earth, we shouldn't be looked down upon for wanting to bring children into this world. Children are our future
